Believe

Think I wrote many times in previous entries to believe believe and believe. I did not sleep during service on Sunday, but N did. That’s good for me, hahaz, but for some reason, I did not really catch much thing except something I already know, believe. Yes believing in him sounds like something so easy, but it is also the most difficult thing to do. Having problems to come out every time, it is really difficult to just believe in him. But when the problem is solve, you would just know it is god that had help solve it.

Today, when I though it was going to be a normal day where I just help my mom in paying some bills, then go school, and go home. Apparently it was not, the power supply company came to the bread shop to cut off the supply. That is very bad, if there’s no electricity; we can’t open shop and continue business. So for today, we had to close shop early. It is times like this where I really can’t do anything, but to just believe that god would do something about it. I don’t know how or when or what he will do, but I just have to believe that he would help us. Even when I am writing this, I don’t see any improvement in the shop or any solution coming out. It is really hard for me to just believe.

So I went to a site that my friend had told be before some time ago. It is an online TV channel, on god. As I listen to one of the sermon, it is on something else that I also know, but had sort of forgotten about it. It is about worship. Believing is one thing, but there is something about worshipping too. Erm think I am not good in explaining so not going to go in depth about it. So anyway, I realize, not only I have to believe, but also to worship even though it is in times of trouble. To praise god of all the things he had done for us. To look at the cross and remember that he had to suffer so much just for us.

Well I just feel sad over the thing that is happening now, but I can’t do anything but to believe and praise him. Guess that’s all for now.

THE END