Joy

The past week was interesting. Some bad things happened and also a few good things.

Well the bad thing, i believe i have written it down on the last entry. The good things to say then. Went to sentosa to have a relax and fun day with the club people. Well that day, my phone could not be use due to unpaid phone bills. Well i was quite worried, but i trust that god will bring me through the whole day without much trouble. So i could not care less that i there is no way of communication to the outside world for me. Well we use to be like that don't we. Before handphone was available to everyone, we all could not contact each other easily, so i am just going back to those days. OK that was abit far away from my topic. So i prayed that there will not be any emergency calls for me or anyone that need to reach me. I went, believed in him and had fun at sentosa. On that day, i also met my CG leader there. So i stayed almost the whole day there with the club people, having lots of fun playing with water, making sand castle and so on.

The next thing would be bible study, the message on that day was quite similar to the one on campus. Reminding us that we are sinners no more. Even though we may still sin every now and then, but we are not sinners anymore. Can't really remember much of other stuff he said, cause i don't want to think so hard and write so much for now.

Then was campus outing. We had this event for the poly cluster at east coast park. Before going there, i had my final theory test. Amazingly, i passed; i did not study alot for it. All i did was read through abit, jumping a few pages, did the questions giving on their elearning site. I prayed to god when i was reading the book and also when do the questions. Really this shows that it really is not me, but god that had brought me through. If i had not rest in him and used my own strength, i think i would have failed the test. Anyway, was really happy and went to east coast after that. We had games there, was split into groups. I got to know a few people that i never talk to in church. Abit sad, i did not get to take any pictures, cause i did not have my camera with me. The whole event was really great, after the games, we went to have our lunch/dinner. Then after we had this praise and worship thing where we just sat down and sing and pray. It was really great. Then during that time, i thought alot, and also prayed alot. Got to realise a few stuff, got prayed over by coach even though i never though i will be called. I still don't really understand the part where people get prayed and they fall. Well maybe i should not understand it and just let it happen to me hahaz. Well anyway that did not happen to me, after the prayer i just go back to where i was. So, it was a great day.

Then finally it was Sunday, N came to church with his family, great to hear that, but he did not call me, so he had to seat at the overflow room. Still again the message repeated something similar during bible study and campus before this service. Well by now, i have already forgot what it was, but as time goes, think people around me will remind me or i will just remember somehow.

Then came Monday and today, Monday i went to do assignment with my friend then to suntec to play abit. Today i went to school for welfare meeting. Attendance was not very good, but well it was fruitful i guess. In both days, i prayed as i leave my house. I prayed that i would not worry about anything that is going to happened and rest in him. Know that he would help me settle it somehow, and very true, when i was doing assignment and during the meeting, not much trouble was given to me, and there are well i think some small results. Oh well that is better then lots of trouble and no results right. So god is so good to me.

So about the stuff i realise this week, think i would talk about it abit. I have always heard from others that god talks to me this and that. I was always amazed at how god talk to them, and how come he never did to me. Then suddenly when i was thinking about it, i realise that god talk to us through our own thoughts. Not sure if this is correct, but this is what i think. Sometimes we get ideas that are so good, that we know that it is not us, but god that have given this idea. Well the idea is something like that, so i think god talk to us through our own thoughts. Then the next thing is, what pastor had said, the so call bad things, is not that we can't do, but as times goes by and as we look at Jesus and at the work that he had done for ur, we will get to dislike doing the things that are not good. Erm not sure if i am even writing this correctly, but will the idea is there. So its like we will dislike doing that whatever stuff, and not don't do it because we can't do it. Realise that god is really so gracious to us that he never force things on us. Even whether to believe in him or not, he also lets us choose. Sometimes i think why don't he just make us believe in him, well i guess i had already answered my own question. Then i did not say what coach prayed for me right, well i couldn’t not really remember everything, but i do remember tha he said something like to be a happy steve, be joyful and stuff.

Then some miscellaneous stuff to say. Well as i have been with my CG alot, i start to think that one of the girl there is alot like my sister. Not saying who, but i really thank god for her, cause as i talk to her more, i realise i am missing my sis alot and she is so like my sis in some way though.

Then yesterday, i had a small talk on msn with Miss Toh, been along time since she was online, so i was quite happy. hehe.......

Well that’s all i guess.