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Why is the title this time just a smiley? Well I don’t know what else to put but this. Actually this is a post I wanted to write for some time already. But due to the fact that I am in the middle of moving house, and after I moved, there was no internet connection, so I did not write.

So why a crying smiley then? Well because when I wanted to write this entry, I was quite sad I guess. Sad over the things my brother is going through, my mom too. And there was this time where anger just came over me and made me forget all the good things that are happening. Amazing how just one small thing can make a person angry and forget all the other things that are happening around. I wanted to go for caregroup on that Friday, but my mom called, and said that my brother would not answer her call and help her on moving. Just when I thought that all the moving is done, she cry and scolded not just my brother but me included. So angry somehow, I went off home to help out. Yes I was angry because she did not tell me before hand and I already told her I have things at night. But she scolded me saying I did not think. Anyway I went back to help out, and think she did not know I was angry since I did not say much. I was really angry and sad that I could not go for caregroup. Anyway it has passed, so had all the emotions.

Guess that was what I wanted to write that day, or something like that since it has been like 1 week and so I forgot entirely hahaha. Then some interesting stuff happens like on the Tuesday and Wednesday, it was a FUN day. Well Tuesday is my friend’s birthday, and she invited me and some of our classmates and her friends out. That also includes HER HAHAHA. I don’t know if she asks her because I asked about her or she already wanted to include her in the outing, but it does not really matter. All it matters is she was there! The outing to celebrate her birthday was quite fun I guess, we went to had lunch then went to party world to sing. I was doing all the photo taking, another good friend of mine entertain us by singing a lot, because for some reason everyone did not want to sing much. Then I sang like 2 songs? and one of them I sang with her *BIG SMILE* After all the singing, she went to meet her friends and so left first. A little disappointed because for the few hours I only talk to her like a few sentences and did not even seat with her… and she’s leaving first…… so sad…… haha. Well we went to have dinner and later I went back home. It was quite fun overall, and I sure would want to go sing again some other time.

Then it was Wednesday. It’s CAREGROUP OUTING DAY!!!!!!!! 2 NPCG people joined us too. We went to east coast park to play. Most of us, including me went to learn roller blade. Some went to rent bike instead. It was fun learning, I now know how to move forward and go over humps at least. Had some injury because I tried to move faster and fell. After all the blading, our CGl left for a meeting first. Then the rest of us went to have dinner at parkway. After dinner we stayed like an hour at a pet shop looking at dogs and talking to the owner about it. It was interesting. Then after we went to a near by play group and just seat down to talk. Talk a little about dreams and then Zhen Heng talks about his situation. Did not know about all this till that day. Pray that his illness will be healed and everything will go smoothly.

Talk about dreams. I do have a few too. Well what I want to for now is just have all the financial problem gone. It really saddens me to see my mom troubled and crying about it. And my brother to just not let my mom worry about him so much. Then I pray that my family would all be together in one place, hopefully Singapore haha. Not like now, dad in Taiwan, sis in London and only my mom, bro and me in Singapore. Missed the days where we could just seat at one table and have dinner and watch TV. It seems like such a long time since we did that, and that was like when I was very young. That would be what I dream for now.

Praise God that he had given me all that I have now, and will continue to praise him no matter what is going on.

Well that’s all for this entry I guess.

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