HIGH !

Today or rather yesterday since it has passed 12 midnight, was really great. The whole week actually was just great.

There is this great news i think, is that Angie's Choice, a cake shop that is quite big i think, called my mom. We do not have any contacts with them before, so it was strange for them to call my mom. Anyway we found out that they had known us through this old folk organisation thingy where we give them left over bread every night for free. So they tasted our one and only PILLOW CAKE in Singapore and had tried to make it themselves and failed. So they called us up and ask if we could sell them the recipe.

I'm not really sure what’s going on, but my mom had gone on some discussion with them. Think they are going to pay us quite alot of money for the recipe, then have my mom work under them and have monthly salary and also be a share holder or something. Not too sure, but it sure sounds good. My mom still have some worries because she had partner with a few people and it failed obviously, so she is not very certain and don't really trust others. To me this offer seems to be quite a good one. I asked my mom if we get that amount of money will the money we owe others be cleared; she said yes most of it.

Well i praise god when i heard this news. If it all works out, it sure is great, and i believe father god will just make everything good. As i went to school in the morning, i thought to myself, god is really good, all we have to do is just rest in him and no care about a thing. That is all we had to do, so simple, cause all of these problems are not what we can handle. When we rest and praise him and let him do the work, the best blessings just comes at you. It just comes so fast that you don't even know how it happened.

So that is the good news that i had. Then next is about my identity. Well we were asked about it on the last Sunday by a care leader when we had this small gathering with a mix of people from SP and NP people i think. It was after church. Think this question was asked before, but i forgot or something. So some people said in friends, look, singing and so on. So he told us in the end that our identity is in Christ Jesus. So it’s like hey, even if i don't do well in my exams or anything, it’s still alright, cause i know that i still have Jesus that loves me so much. My identity is not in my exam results. I will not feel lonely, rejected, sad or anything just because i failed my test, because i know that i am accepted and loved by him. It is real great to know this.

Well i just had my tests over, so i don't know what my results are, but hey, i don't really care you know. I know that i had tried my best, even if i get a distinction or a fail, i know that he still loves me.

Just found out that one of my lecturer goes to the same church as my mom. It's so cool man! That day, which is now 37 mins ago, i went to bible study. Not going to tell much about the service, cause i already forgot most of what it was preached. It was something like i had mention above and much more. But i do know during the service, it just made me so happy and so high for some reason. I was quite tired and sleepy before the service, but WOW i felt so high that i did not fall asleep during that time in service. Learn that when you are in peace with Christ, even your enemies are in peace.........something like that. Pastor said something like when there is anyone who had done wrong to you or something like that, just forgive and bless them. Cause they just don't know the truth yet. He gave some illustration from the bible, but well i don't really read the bible, so i was not sure it was from where or how the story was. This is something that it is very hard to do. I mean how to just forgive and bless someone who had done wrong to you. So hey that’s why you need daddy god to help you too. It is amazing at how he do things. So anyway the service ended making me feel very high for some unknown reason, which is why the title of this entry.

Well then some extra stuff that i would write. Finally saw Miss Toh after 3weeks of no school. Not very sure, but think she had her hair reborn or something, cause it was straight all the way down instead last time where it was abit curly at the bottom. Well whatever it is, she still looks good haha (blush).

So conclusion for today and for every entry that will going to be, just rest in daddy and he will take care of everything for you. PRAISE HIM. That’s all.

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Joy

The past week was interesting. Some bad things happened and also a few good things.

Well the bad thing, i believe i have written it down on the last entry. The good things to say then. Went to sentosa to have a relax and fun day with the club people. Well that day, my phone could not be use due to unpaid phone bills. Well i was quite worried, but i trust that god will bring me through the whole day without much trouble. So i could not care less that i there is no way of communication to the outside world for me. Well we use to be like that don't we. Before handphone was available to everyone, we all could not contact each other easily, so i am just going back to those days. OK that was abit far away from my topic. So i prayed that there will not be any emergency calls for me or anyone that need to reach me. I went, believed in him and had fun at sentosa. On that day, i also met my CG leader there. So i stayed almost the whole day there with the club people, having lots of fun playing with water, making sand castle and so on.

The next thing would be bible study, the message on that day was quite similar to the one on campus. Reminding us that we are sinners no more. Even though we may still sin every now and then, but we are not sinners anymore. Can't really remember much of other stuff he said, cause i don't want to think so hard and write so much for now.

Then was campus outing. We had this event for the poly cluster at east coast park. Before going there, i had my final theory test. Amazingly, i passed; i did not study alot for it. All i did was read through abit, jumping a few pages, did the questions giving on their elearning site. I prayed to god when i was reading the book and also when do the questions. Really this shows that it really is not me, but god that had brought me through. If i had not rest in him and used my own strength, i think i would have failed the test. Anyway, was really happy and went to east coast after that. We had games there, was split into groups. I got to know a few people that i never talk to in church. Abit sad, i did not get to take any pictures, cause i did not have my camera with me. The whole event was really great, after the games, we went to have our lunch/dinner. Then after we had this praise and worship thing where we just sat down and sing and pray. It was really great. Then during that time, i thought alot, and also prayed alot. Got to realise a few stuff, got prayed over by coach even though i never though i will be called. I still don't really understand the part where people get prayed and they fall. Well maybe i should not understand it and just let it happen to me hahaz. Well anyway that did not happen to me, after the prayer i just go back to where i was. So, it was a great day.

Then finally it was Sunday, N came to church with his family, great to hear that, but he did not call me, so he had to seat at the overflow room. Still again the message repeated something similar during bible study and campus before this service. Well by now, i have already forgot what it was, but as time goes, think people around me will remind me or i will just remember somehow.

Then came Monday and today, Monday i went to do assignment with my friend then to suntec to play abit. Today i went to school for welfare meeting. Attendance was not very good, but well it was fruitful i guess. In both days, i prayed as i leave my house. I prayed that i would not worry about anything that is going to happened and rest in him. Know that he would help me settle it somehow, and very true, when i was doing assignment and during the meeting, not much trouble was given to me, and there are well i think some small results. Oh well that is better then lots of trouble and no results right. So god is so good to me.

So about the stuff i realise this week, think i would talk about it abit. I have always heard from others that god talks to me this and that. I was always amazed at how god talk to them, and how come he never did to me. Then suddenly when i was thinking about it, i realise that god talk to us through our own thoughts. Not sure if this is correct, but this is what i think. Sometimes we get ideas that are so good, that we know that it is not us, but god that have given this idea. Well the idea is something like that, so i think god talk to us through our own thoughts. Then the next thing is, what pastor had said, the so call bad things, is not that we can't do, but as times goes by and as we look at Jesus and at the work that he had done for ur, we will get to dislike doing the things that are not good. Erm not sure if i am even writing this correctly, but will the idea is there. So its like we will dislike doing that whatever stuff, and not don't do it because we can't do it. Realise that god is really so gracious to us that he never force things on us. Even whether to believe in him or not, he also lets us choose. Sometimes i think why don't he just make us believe in him, well i guess i had already answered my own question. Then i did not say what coach prayed for me right, well i couldn’t not really remember everything, but i do remember tha he said something like to be a happy steve, be joyful and stuff.

Then some miscellaneous stuff to say. Well as i have been with my CG alot, i start to think that one of the girl there is alot like my sister. Not saying who, but i really thank god for her, cause as i talk to her more, i realise i am missing my sis alot and she is so like my sis in some way though.

Then yesterday, i had a small talk on msn with Miss Toh, been along time since she was online, so i was quite happy. hehe.......

Well that’s all i guess.

Believe

Think I wrote many times in previous entries to believe believe and believe. I did not sleep during service on Sunday, but N did. That’s good for me, hahaz, but for some reason, I did not really catch much thing except something I already know, believe. Yes believing in him sounds like something so easy, but it is also the most difficult thing to do. Having problems to come out every time, it is really difficult to just believe in him. But when the problem is solve, you would just know it is god that had help solve it.

Today, when I though it was going to be a normal day where I just help my mom in paying some bills, then go school, and go home. Apparently it was not, the power supply company came to the bread shop to cut off the supply. That is very bad, if there’s no electricity; we can’t open shop and continue business. So for today, we had to close shop early. It is times like this where I really can’t do anything, but to just believe that god would do something about it. I don’t know how or when or what he will do, but I just have to believe that he would help us. Even when I am writing this, I don’t see any improvement in the shop or any solution coming out. It is really hard for me to just believe.

So I went to a site that my friend had told be before some time ago. It is an online TV channel, on god. As I listen to one of the sermon, it is on something else that I also know, but had sort of forgotten about it. It is about worship. Believing is one thing, but there is something about worshipping too. Erm think I am not good in explaining so not going to go in depth about it. So anyway, I realize, not only I have to believe, but also to worship even though it is in times of trouble. To praise god of all the things he had done for us. To look at the cross and remember that he had to suffer so much just for us.

Well I just feel sad over the thing that is happening now, but I can’t do anything but to believe and praise him. Guess that’s all for now.

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Campus service

Well campus service was quite interesting today. Before i start about it, i will write about what happen earlier today.

Went to my mom's office to check on some computer stuff. I heard that we got a notice or something saying that we are found out using pirated windows and so on. Was nothing big actually, it was just windows update. All i had to do was to do a system restore and it was back to normal again. Get me thinking that the guy who is currently helping my mom in the IT stuff, how come he does not know to do that simple thing. Wonder if he is even better then i am or just plain lazy to try fix it on his own or something. He was going to come on Monday then try to fixed it with some really troublesome stuff, and i fixed it in like 5mins? Oh well i'm not really sure and so not gonna really care, pray that god will guide my mom and the company well and so on.

So finally i went to suntec. Went for campus service, it was great. Today it was about SEX!!!! haha just kidding, that is just the illustration the pastor use today. It was more on something like kicking away bad habits and addiction. He says that we are a new creation, and we are holy because of that. Erm can't remember which verse that he used to explain, but it was something like that. So about kicking away the bad addiction like surfing porn and so on, its not about that its not good and i must not surf porn. But it is because as we accept Jesus in our life, and become a new creation, we are holy in his name. And because we are holy, we become to dislike sins. As we dislike sin, we would not do them. So its not so much of your self effort trying to tell yourself that its not good to watch porn, but is to rest in him and let him do the work. Erm don't think i make myself clear here, but never mind. There he had this really funny, but quite a meaningful illustration again. Its about worm and butterfly. Imagine that we are a worm, which is when we are not safe, then when we are, we become a beautiful butterfly. Sometimes, the butterfly will still land on some dirty rubbish bin, meaning sin, but still it is a butterfly already, and it will not be back to a worm again. It is suppose to mean that once we are safe, we are safed. We may still do sin sometime, but we are still safe and holy and will not be back to a sinner. Not sure if i am writing it correctly, but its something like that. Well overall, today's service was great, it was really something that is for us. Hope my brother would have heard this service. Well i really pray that he would come back to god soon. Seeing him going astray is really painful at times.

Well after service, i went to find the guys whom are at suntect too. Figure that they would just go lan later on, so i went dinnering with my caregroup friends. Had all the small talks together, knowing and understanding more about god and stuff. Then soon go home. It was a great day i guess and hope tomorrow will be also another great day. Actually hoping for school to come soon so i can see her again. heheheh that’s all.

Oh one more thing that i think i should write, erm....... marg was wearing quite nice i think..... yupz thats all....
If you're reading this, i don't usually say this, so must thank me for complimenting ah hehe was shy to say in person. That reminds me, SL was also wearing very nice a few weeks ago. Thank me too if you know that i am refering to you hahahaz just kidding.

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Being a fan

Today was relatively fun. Went to school to help some friends in their video project thingy. Me and some others friends were called to act as fans for some unknown idol. Before that, i was suppose to cycle all the way down to school on my bicycle, cause a friend of mine wanted to borrow it. Well that was the initial plan, but my mom drove me to school instead, so thank god for that, or else i would have stink with sweat the whole day.

Anyway, back to the fan thing. I and many other friends from MIT club were called to act as fans. It was quite fun as in we keep laughing at the posters and stuff that they made with their hard work. Well sorry about that, but it was really funny. Then the main actor was an Indonesian who is not very good with chinese. I have no idea why they had to film the show in chinese anyway, since his not good with chinese, why not in english from the beginning. So he had to rehearse and rehearse over and over again. Quite hilarious at some parts. So what do we do as fans, we had to keep screaming and cheering for many hours. We did not get any pay, but well we do get lots of free lollipops.

I found that filming is really hard if not with careful planning, and it seems like they did not really did a good plan. Not saying they were not prepared, but not prepared enough, almost could not finish the stuff that they and to finish. That reminds me, i wanted to also make just one simple short film, and it seems like its going to be quite hard. From today, they only did a few scenes and it took the whole day, for what i had in mind, seems like i really need to do a lot of work to make it look nice. Well i don't even know if i will be going to make one or not.

Hopefully one day went i got the time, i would finally write the script down and plan how i am going to shoot it, think who i am going to ask to film it, with my small lousy budget camera. Its just for entertainment purpose anyway. As i think about it, it sounds really fun to make a comedy. My plan was to make a short film that have lots of NGs in it, but still continue filming, and then at the same time because of those errors, there would always be a narrator behind talking and explaining about what’s going on. It would be a comedy that is different from normal comedy; hopefully it would turn out to what i think it would. You readers are most probably confuse at what i am trying to say, well that’s because i am not good in writing either. So you could just wait for me to actually do that film which is like i have no idea when, or you could watch esp. 1 of "Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu", that’s where i get my idea from. Maybe i would just do almost the same thing with that anime.

One last news, i deleted the other blog i had, for it is practically useless. Wrote a few stuff there, but i guess i write those kind of stuff here too, so i just decided to delete it. Wanted to bring the entry here, but think about it, what's the point. Accutally is i have no idea how to bring it over.

Well that’s all for now i guess.

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music, smiles, and something else?

ok finally i get my lazy butt over to this site again to start typing some random stuff again. Holidays are here again, well its elearning week, but its almost the same as holidays except i have to do lots of work on the net. Due to my STM, i can't remember much or any interesting stuff i gone through the pass few weeks. Damn i am confessing that again. I should say that i have a super brain that can remember everything muwahaha, amen.

Anyway, the topic is music and smiles, why is that so? Bascially that are just some of the stuff I remember from the service I went for past few weeks in church. I remember something like music is actually very good to humans, especially classical. But one more even better is praise and worship (PAW) songs, i think, can't remember all the stuff it says, basically music are just good for you, not rock or whatever, but those classical ones. Having heard that, i still like my jap rap and rock music hahaz. But i still like classical and PAW now and then. Actually, i have been listening to a almost non stop of PAW for some times, don't know why, maybe because i want to get near father god more and more.

Next smiles, another thing i remember pastor saying about it. Said something that research shown that a baby smile gives a person more "high" factor then when a person is given 16k. Wow that is really something so cool. So over all i learn smiles are good haha, just like when i see a certain someone smile to me (BIG GRIN).

So what’s the something else hmmm basically nothing i guess, cause i don't feel like wracking my brain, killing an unknown number of brain cells to think and write down whatever i should write. Maybe abit of today, i woke up, washed up and started to sit in front of my com for sometime, almost never went out of my room. Wanted to go cycling, but was raining. Looking forward to tomorrow cause i will go out. Even looking forward to Saturday, cause got campus service, 2 of my friends might join :), and also Sunday too. Well that’s all i guess.

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